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*wavies* Sorry for the long time between updates, but I've been concentrating on writing. My first part of the Chastity Corset story is now up on Gagged Utopia, but I'm guessing most people reading this will have read that. If you haven't then get over there now and read it! *giggles* because... part 2 is coming very soon. I've written it, I'm just checking, proof reading, getting people to proof read and critique, and then I'll be ready to publish! It will almost certainly be this week...

Oh, and there will be at least another 4 parts, probably more like 5 or 6 to the story, as you'll see when you read it, so I'm going to be quite busy over the next few weeks writing it all! Its a good thing I enjoy the writing, and love you all so!

And of course, I continue to wear my corset as much as possible... Research, you understand :)

Love you all, my loyal readers

CazaDolly
This blog is more and more about my corset wearing, and less and less about writing - I really should be writing more! Now I'm back home, I promise I'll write some more for all you lovely people. But I do hope you all enjoy hearing about my experiences? Do feel free to let me know.

So yesterday, I managed to sleep in until about 1 o'clock! And still tightly corseted, so I've beaten my record with about 27 hours. I wonderful feeling, and was all tightly cupcaked all day. Finally removed it this morning after a restless night - had real trouble getting to sleep, probably due to my sleeping until the afternoon. Having a day off today - apart from my flight, I've been corseted the best part of a week, and I don't want to over do it. It may be too late, for that, of course, but I should try to give my body time to adjust.

xoxo

CazaDolly
Woke this morning, after being tightly corseted for 22 and a half hours. I slept very well, considering the tightness around my waist, and it was a lovely feeling waking to that tightness, being constricted and squeezed in my middle.

I didn't want to take it off, so I made coffee and wandered Second Life a little, before packing and then, finally, loosening the laces and taking it off around 9am, meaning I'd been corseted for 25hours, the longest I've been continually.

Is this the start of a trend? I don't think so - I love wearing it, but life is what it is, and while its fun to do while I'm away, 23/7 corseting is a big commitment in terms of lifestyle, wardrobe etc. that I don't think I'm ready for it. Maybe sometime in the future. Of course, its not going to stop me wearing it to work, and as much as possible!

I've not got as much writing done as I'd like to have while I've been away. You will have noticed a few blog posts, but aside from that not much else. The conference was good, but quite draining - lots of stuff going into my head, lots of new people to meet and quite alot of food and drink! I think I miss my quiet couple of hours on the train each day, so I'm looking forward to getting back to a normalish routine.

So, I'm sitting in Baltimore airport just now, with my laptop, waiting on my flight how - will get back tomorrow morning stupidly early, when I might manage to post this blog entry!

Love you all

CazaDolly
So yesterday was my first ever 23 hour day corseted. I slept overnight without removing it, and just took it off when I got up around 7.

I had an hour out of if, to wash and toilet, then laced myself back in for the day. Managed to get it somewhat more comfy too - yesterday it was a bit high to keep it from pressing too much on my hips which have been a bit painful. But today, I managed to get the pressure about right, so was able to wear it a bit lower which was a much better fit.

Had a good day, keeping mobile enough so as not to be too stiff, but then made the mistake of going out to a Brazilian restaurant - way too much food, I'm sure my tummy would have got twice as big had it not been so squished - was feeling quite uncomfortable. But I'm still wearing it - things are settling down tummy wise, but still feel full.

However, I shall do another 23 hours, I think. Tomorrow I fly home back to the UK, so I shan't wear it on the plane - going through security with steel bones round your middle probably isn't the wisest thing to do.

Its been nice being in a different timezone for a while - getting to meet a different set of people in SL is kinda fun. I hope I manage to get back across again in the near future...
I laced myself into my cupcakes this morning at about 8am, and have managed, today, to wear it ever since - its now about midnight, and I've still got a very tight waist. I've had my moments today - this morning, sitting down, it was digging into my right hip and a lil uncomfortable, but managed to adjust it so it was OK.

Sitting down, which I'm doing alot at the conference, isn't the best position for a corseted Dolly, but I was OK - made sure I moved when I could, and kept as upright as possible.

Lunch came and went - just a salad and sandwich, then on to the afternoon, which is my usual time where I feel like ripping it off and being free. But managed to resist that urge, and went on through dinner into the evening, which brings me to now.

So, 16 hours so far, and I'm quite inclined to sleep in it tonight - I've been sleeping in my old one, but that's really not tight, so I think a night in my cupcakes will be a nice idea. Aim for 23 hours wearing it, take it off for a quick shower, then back on for the next day.

I guess I'll see how the night goes - I may be up in the middle of the night taking it off, but at least I'll have tried :)
So I'm here in Baltimore for a conference, thanks to my works for sending me, but of course, I brought along my corsets, and have been wearing them as much as possible.

I arrived on Saturday night after alot of travelling from London, and just flopped when I got to my hotel room. My plan was to wear my corsets as much as possible, aiming at 23x7 corseting. So, upon arrival, as tired as I was, I laced myself into my corset. Admittedly, just my older one which I'm almost too slim for now, but it still felt good to have it wrapped around me, gently squeezing my tummy. I spent a restless night, perhaps due to the corset, but more likely due to the jet-lag, and then was awake way too early.

I showered and dressed, lacing myself into my cupcake corset, and headed down for breakfast. Just a bagel and some cream cheese - my fear this week is those large US food portions will strike my slim waist and I'll put on loads of weight. *giggles* all the more reason to wear my corset, so I can't get any more food in.

I do have a bit of an issue when it comes to eating, where I do feel I have to eat everything on my plate, and not waste any. I look at it and think that it would be such a waste to leave it. So, if the portions are big, I'll try to eat it all up. I had this problem on Sunday where I ordered a club sandwich, and it was huge, but my mind said I had to eat it all - ate most of it and regretted it, since my tummy wasn't big enough to take it. Had to go back to my hotel room and loosen things off. But then, I think I'd over done it anyway, making things too tight. So loosening things off was a good thing.

I don't think my cupcake corset is as comfy as the my others. I suspect that's because it is a lil bit too small for my waist, and the steel bones don't sit in quite the right places for my anatomy. So I have to be very careful how I lace it, where it sits on my body, how tight it goes etc. But I just love how it looks on me, so I guess I'll continue to take that care and lace myself into it. I am saving up for a custom one from FairyGothMother, but they are rather pricey, so want to make sure I'm at my proper weight and waist size before I order it.

I was lying the bed on Sunday, playing with my camera, wanting to know what my waist actually looked like - OK, so I could've used a mirror, but that would have meant getting up - and took this photo which I thought I'd shared with my loyal readers, who I love dearly. I'm sure I'll write more before this week is out.

xoxo

CazaDolly

OK, I'm seriously in love! This is the tightest thing I've ever worn... yesterday was quite a day:

I got up a little bit early, since I knew that it would take a bit more effort to lace myself in and I really didn't want to rush. That was around 5:45 - abluted, underwear, liner, then corset.

It took a little bit to put it on - mostly the modesty panel. Since this corset doesn't come anywhere near closing, it looks a little strange without it, and much better with. So that takes a bit of adjusting. Then tighter and tighter. It does go really quite tight, and I think I over did it a bit, but more of that later. Breathed a bit more, then finished dressing, and made it out of the door in good time to walk to the station and catch my train. Walking was, um, careful shall we say - I'm always amazed at how it affects my motion when moving, more so given its particular tightness today!

My usual spot on the train. There's a couple of different sorts of seats on the train - the main ones are semi-reclined, and actually quite uncomfortable in a corset - I lean back too far, rather than the quite upright posture they force on you. It's similar with sofas and armchairs. The other sort are flip down seats in the space put aside for wheelchairs, prams etc. These are much better, and I can sit quite happily here with my back nice and upright, and there's a little table for my laptop too :)

Sitting is quite different - no slouching is possible - just good posture and being upright! So these seats are ideal.

Took the tube into the office, and made it there. By this time I was getting quite uncomfortable, and suspected I'd tightened it up to much. Quick trip to the ladies room in the office, and slackened the laces off just a little bit, which improved things.

The morning wore on - very aware of my constriction. Eventually I had to go and loosen again before Lunch. I started to change the way I was breathing which helped alot. More up and down rather than in and out - like a heaving chest like effect.

Lunchtime was a great relief, able to go out for a walk, which is the best part for me - corsets should be moved in. Then you feel the way they're restricting your body the way its squeezing your waist and tummy, its relentless squeezing of your torso, the pressure on your hips, the way it forces your back straight and your chest out, the way your hips sway when you're walking.

Its also the relief from sitting down, I must add - sitting is the worst position to be in when corseted, so its lovely to be up for a while.

The afternoon progressed, and towards the end I was out visiting a customer firstly, then in a meeting, both of which were quite an experience, being so tightly laced and having to try to sit nice and naturally so as not to look weird.

Then it was hometime - took the bus and stood all the way, even when someone offered me their seat! Much more comfortable to stand!

Sat on the train, reflecting my very bound day - I am so in love with this corset, it really is so wonderfully tight on me, I love what it does to my body, and to my mind. I think I'm going to wear it a lot more!
Today is going to be my first full day in my new corset. And it is tight! I probably should have measured my waist, for the record, but about half an hour I laced myself into my new corset, and it is now very firmly squishing my insides to very unnatural degrees. It is such a wonderful feeling! Its hard to describe to someone who's not experienced it - people say its like being hugged, but this is quite a long way above that.

Imagine that someone has trapped your tummy in a pink satin vice, that you feel it squishing your waist line unceasingly, no chance of an relief.
Imagine your posture - no chance of slouching, having to sit up to remain even close to comfortable.
Imagine not feeling hungry all day, mostly because you have no stomach space, only being able to nibble.
Imagine not being able to bend, your whole torso fixed in one position, maybe being able to reachi your toes, but definitely not the floor.

but

Imagine having the most amazing figure: narrow waist, drawing attention to curvy hips and bust.
Imagine the feeling of knowing you're trapped inside this, with no way to remove it without embarrassment, constricted for the whole day.
Imagine knowing that your quest to be slimmer is being helped with not being able to eat.
Imagine being on the edge of sexual excitement all day, being so close to being turned on all day, that you might explode with pleasure at any moment.

Imagine being corseted.

So, I may or may not be wearing this at the end of the day. I hope I will be, but it may become too unbearable, or, for that matter, too distracting: I am meant to be working today after all!

xoxo

CazaDolly
Well, as I thought I would, I've gone and bought myself a new corset!


So, I went to the shop, Burleska up in Camden, and basically said that I'm getting a custom made one but need one in the meantime. I tried on one which was only a couple of inches smaller than my current one, and that was tight, but there wasn't much slack, so it wouldn't have lasted long. There wasn't really anything in the next size down, so she suggested I try this one, which was 2 inches smaller yet - 6 inches smaller in total than my current corset! When she'd finished tightening, I could hardly breathe! It was wonderful! It has quite a large gap at the back, so I've a really incentive to lose lots more weight now and that means I won't shrink out of it too fast - probably not at all, really. And I really love the colour and design - gorgeous and cute - you know I just love pink. Can't wait to wear it tomorrow! I really don't know how long I'll last in it, though - it is seriously more severe than anything I've worn before. I'll write more tomorrow to let everyone know!

xoxo

CazaDaolly
Well, yesterday I reached a decision - not hugely momentous, but should have an effect on my life. I'm going to buy a new corset today. Not the expensive properly fitted on, you understand, but another interim one. I was um-ing and ah-ing over the weekend and most of yesterday about whether my current one would last me longer, but yesterday afternoon I realised it was actually more uncomfortable for being too loose.

A bit paradoxical, I know, but let me explain: a properly fitting corset will support you, keep you firmly upright with good posture, hold you in all the right places. Your body adjusts to this, and expects to be held, squished.

So, with a badly fitting corset, it supports me in some places, but not in others, and my body has to work to support me in a position which isn't completely natural, and therefore gets stressed, especially sitting down for a time, for example.

So, I therefore need to get a new one if I'm going to continue to corset most days. Part of my dilemma was using some of my savings towards my fitted corset for this one, but I also don't want to be corsetless too long, so its the only sensible option :)

I've been doing more writing, squeezing the words out one by one, so hopefully a new story won't be too far off... the second part of Chastity Corset. There, I've said it now, now I've got to do it!

xoxo

CazaDolly
I started to do more writing yesterday, trying to write the second part of my Chastity Corset story. Its hard - I usually have quite a clear idea of where the plot will go, but I only had a vague idea (which I won't give away) so it was quite hard work expanding on that out to a reasonable short story length. I guess its like writers block a lil bit. I tend to work out plots in my mind before putting them down in writing, which seems to work OK for me. So I think I've got this part worked out in my head - just have to actually write it now!

Went out at lunchtime yesterday corset hunting. My current one is getting loose, and I'm away for a week in about a week and a half at a conference in the US, so I would like something that fits properly for when I'm there. My normal corset shop up until now is Burleska which I'd definitely recommend. They have a shop up in Camden, where I usually go, rather than using mail order, so I can see and try on before I buy. So I went up yesterday, and they have a lovely cupcake one which I quite fancy, so maybe next week, I'll go get it for being away.

I browsed alot too, gazing at the gorgeous Gothic clothing and Lolita dresses. Camden Market really is a wonderful place - I could spend hours there, wandering the narrow lanes, looking at all the little shops - some are very touristy, others less so - a couple were selling what looked like quite serious corsets. Not cheap, which is always a good sign!

So another trip up next week I think, and hopefully I'll have another part to my story by then too.
Not a fun day yesterday or Friday evening - went to bed with alot of pain in my leg, and tingling in my foot and hand - woke up feeling similar, called NHS direct, who just told me to take pain killers. Called the out of hours doctor and got an appointment, but she couldn't decided what was wrong, but did rule out anything like DVT which would be an emergency. So still hobbling a lil bit, and still a bit sore.

Otherwise, spent the day yesterday doing a bit of shopping and other housey type stuff - nothing *that* interesting (why are you reading my blog again? Oh, and I meant to be interesting? oopsies! OK, I'll try a bit harder.)

Today I was helping a friend with her garden, which was quite fun, and then out with other friend and have eaten *way* too much. For those who don't know I've been dieting and slimming. That was my New Year's resolution, to lose weight, and I think I've done pretty well. I had a corset which I bought last year which I couldn't wear fully laced. That is now way too big, so I bought another one, which was 2 inches smaller, and now that is fully laced, and starting to feel a little bit loose.

So I feel fantastic, people comment that I look sooo much slimmer. I'm wearing my corset more and more too, which I'm sure helps with the weight loss. They say that it doesn't directly help - of course they make you slimmer, but then when you take them off you go back to your original size. However, while wearing it, I feel less hungry, so I'm able to eat less.

And tonight, I ate a bit more than I have recently, but by no mean loads, and I feel soooo full! I'm not even corseted, but I think my stomach must've shrunk or something, which is wonderful! I don't think I'll eat anything all week.

But my aim now is to lose so much that my current corset doesn't fit at all, then I'll get another new one, this time from FairyGothMother, get properly fitted this time, and not shrink too much that it only lasts 2 months.

Though I may have to buy another interim one - FGM take 4-8 weeks to make them, so I doubt I'd last that long without constraint :)