Sneezy Dolly!

I've been quite busy recently, and now I think I might be coming down with a cold - sore throat and sneezing :(

Still, made it to work today, so I can't be that bad. This will, annoyingly, probably curb my corset wearing - there's one big thing which is very bad to do in a corset, and that is to sneeze - it should be avoided at all costs - I've done it once or twice and it is *very* uncomfortable, verging on the painful! Just the sheer force that your chest moves with, pushes against the corset, and you can actually risk breaking it!

So, I'll be avoiding that.

xoxo

CazaDolly

Hyper Japan!

Ohayo gozaimasu!

I was hyper at Hyper Japan yesterday! What a wonderful place! I got there about midday, and just wandered and soaked up the atmosphere :)

Kawaii fashion show was amazing - such wonderful outfits, the epitome of cuteness. Favourite? Hard to pick, but Pixie Late's Baby/Disney dress was gorgeous:

(She's on the left here) (sorry for the rubbish pic - I just had my phone)

I was a bit disappointed on the amount of Lolita stuff in general, though - plenty of Kawaii hair accessories and jewellery: I treated myself to a cupcake bow. But not much in terms of clothing etc. But I was generally inspired - maybe next time I'll make it dressed up a lil more

The food looked amazing but the queues were horrendous. The Cosplayers were impressive in their... costumes. There were some scary Samurai swords, some interesting looking games and some very cute arty things

Altogether, a fun was to spend a Sunday afternoon

xoxo

CazaDolly

Optimism

OK, so I'm an optimist - always have been and probably always will be. Always thinking the best of people, always expecting things to work out good in the end. It does mean I tend to be cheerful, but then, I do have a depressive side too. I'm also quite introverted and shy at times, and like some "me time" quite often.

I was optimistic thinking I'd manage a blog a day. Too many other distractions! I was going to write this earlier today, but Gothic Lolita Wigs emailed me with a special offer and that was me away, choosing :)

And I'm off to Hyper Japan exhibition up in London on Sunday :) Yay! Never been before, so don't quite know what to expect, but it looks wonderful - hopefully get some Christmas Lolita ideas

xoxo

CazaDolly

Corseted Week..

This week I managed to corset Monday to Friday, which for recent times is a lil bit of a record. It is feeling nice and consistent and comfy - managing to last the whole day fairly tight without even adjusting, most days - providing I'm not silly and over tighten, of course!

Now previous days I've said I want it to become normal, so why am I celebrating this? Well, perhaps because it is becoming normal - I can just wear it day in and day out. It is just my life, my normal day - previous weeks I've got to Thursday and not felt like  - today, Friday, I was fine and happy to be all squished up... I think its growing on me ;)

CazaDolly

Everyday Corsetry

I was reading yesterday and found this article on Lucy's Corsetry site:

De-Sensationalizing the corset
It is about saying that the corset it just another garment - and should be worn as such, rather than being a special item with connotations of kink or fetish. I love this idea, and I'm getting there myself - it has become a daily thing for me, wearing it as long as I can, not too tight but tight enough. Aware of it like any other garment, but not distracted by it. When I recently took mine to be dry cleaned, I got a comment from the lady there that it must be uncomfortable - she wasn't really interested in my argument that it was actually quite comfortable, but it illustrates the general pre-conceptions about corsetry.

They can be everyday wear: I wear mine because I love the feeling it gives me and I love the figure it gives me, and, yes, there is a certain degree of fetish of being bound tightly into it with no trivial way out (I can't just kick it off like I can a pair of uncomfortable heels) but it is now just part of my daily routine, my lifestyle.

xoxo

CazaDolly

Less Grumpy

I'm getting less grumpy - had a weekend which was filled with doing stuff, but feeling quite down and discontented with life in general. Nothing majorly serious in the grand scheme of things, but just that feeling that life could be so much more than it is and I should be doing more with this gift I've been given.

I'm sure it'll pass, and life will go back to normalishness.

Spending the morning on the train, trying to work out what I want for Christmas :) Corset is ready to go for the day, which always makes me feel better. Going to be a good day, I think. We'll see!

Still not got any further with any writings, which I guess is also depressing a lil bit. I don't like failing at things and it feels a bit like that when I'm not writing.

And yesyes, I know this is all a bit short sentences and meaningless waffle from me :) I guess I'm not feeling very deep today. Is it that Winter's coming? Mornings and Evenings are dark and gloomy... Christmas is looming. I do enjoy Christmas, but it can get stressful. This year I'm at my place for Christmas and people are coming to visit me, which will be good - usually I travel off round seeing everyone, but for the first time, I think, I'm staying put! Might even get a real tree! Must get fairies for the tree.

xoxo

CazaDolly

Grumpy

This morning I was grumpy... I'm normally quite placid, but some days I just get grumpy. Not sure why, just one of those odd feelings really. Maybe general frustration with life. Maybe just grumpiness.

Told someone off at the station for smoking too near the entrance. I think I shocked him a bit, I'm not sure he expected me to say that. Not sure I did either

Got better during the day, though, and this evening back to my normal placid self. I think. Maybe an evening of just being a Dolly in SL helped. Nothing to do but just be. No worries or cares. Just be.

CazaDolly

Shopping and wandering

I wandered up to Camden yesterday, which is one of my favourite places to go shopping, but does lack a proper Lolita shop, which always frustrates me - there's so much there which is *almost* the right thing, but not quite. V. annoying. Still, it's nice to wander about, soak up the atmosphere, browse the very nice corsets, dresses and skirts which are still lovely. A nice relaxing place. Online shopping/browsing isn't quite the same, though I recently discovered fanplusfriend.com, to add to my list of nice Lolita shopping sites - must compose a Christmas list :)

CazaDolly

So Still, So Mad

Second Life is a wonderful place, and so odd, what it makes you do - I'm sitting, locked in a box, unable to move, speak, IM, see names or change clothes, but happy, just to sit and wait for my Master to appear, if indeed he will. He is my Master, ruler over me, has absolute control over my body and mind in SL, and over my RL mind where that is projected into SL, like now. My blog is an extension of that - it is now his command which causes me to write it everyday... well, OK, I've missed a few. And his which causes me to sit still on my sofa, watching, waiting for him to appear, having the limited interaction with other that I can, but still thoroughly enjoying myself.

Very odd, that such enjoyment could come from such little action, but the mind is a wonderful thing...

Oh, and really working on being brainwashed by the hypnosis in my box... that is my reading while I'm on, and not being distracted. But that also goes into my RL mind, gets under my skin, feeds my dreams of being a doll, displayed, used...

CazaDolly

Home at at last

I'm home - tired, sad, but glad I went - lot of family there... like everyone says, must get to meet them more outside funerals and weddings, but good to see them anyways.

The service itself was quite emotional - sometimes these things don't hit you until the actual day, but it really did - though my Uncle and I weren't particularly close, seeing my cousins and my Mum trying to speak about him...

Makes you want to grasp life with both hands and make the most of it!


xoxo

CazaDolly

Travelling...

OK, so I tried to get everything I needed into a small case, but it didn't work - but then I needed to take a sleeping bag, towel, shoes etc. I flew to NYC over the summer with less luggage than this! Still, it wasn't a major problem - just a bigger case.

The train was quite relaxing really - first one wasn't completely full, the second was only an hour's journey so it didn't really matter too much being squished into a window seat. And then I arrived, met by an aunt who I've not seem for ages, onto to see my Mum and cousins and more Aunts and Uncles and second cousins and other family friends.

Cold house, until we worked out the heating, Italian food, which was gorgeous, and now sittng, writing a lil bit, thinking bed might be good soon - early night tonight - need to be refreshed for tomorrow.

CazaDolly

Yesterday...

Now I'm a lil bit more awake, I should write some more about what we did yesterday, since I was quite terse in my last post.

The weather looked good, and we had a 2 for 1 voucher, so GF and I headed for Kew Gardens. I love to wander around places like that, looking for hidden unexplored corners and interesting places. It was the first time I was at Kew (which is the Royal Botanical Gardens, for those who don't know, West London, just next to the Thames).

The highlight was probably the tree top platform they have installed which takes you up to the very highest part of the trees and lets you wander round, gazing out as if you were a bird, perched in the high branches. A fascinating point of view to have:

Another highlight was Queen Charlotte's summer house, which was tucked away in a corner of the gardens - although it was closed: I guess it was closed for the winter, or only open sometimes, just seeing it there, and imagining the Queen and her ladies, dressed in their finest gowns, entertaining at a garden party, or some other occasion. It would have been quite a sight.

Coffee, cake and a gift shop later, and we headed for Westfield for a wander and bite to eat, then home, exhausted, probably from too much fresh air.

Today I don't have the bike, so a nice and early corseted waist - 6:30am start, nice posture on the train, need Starbucks!

Day Out!

Today, I took a day off work, and went, with my GF, to Kew Gardens, which is West London.

Its the first time I've been there, and it was wonderful! amazing - great weather, and such lovely gardens, full of weird and wonderful things

But exhausted, so this will be short and sweet ;)

xoxo

CazaDolly

Missing...

Well, I have to apologise to my readers, as I've not blogged for the past few days when I said I'd be commited to write every day. I have no real excuse - I could make one up about being tired, but really I should be honest, and know that I should have written something at least.

So, I'm back on the train for another wet and dismal Monday morning - the clocks changed over the weekend, so it is a lil bit lighter in the morning, but not by much: it was still dark when my alarm dragged me into consciousness this morning, and I wasn't up quite early enough to catch the early train. Stood on cold platform for 15 mins waiting for the next one.

And now I think I'll do some actual fiction writing - I've started a couple of thing

Corset Mending

So the other day I took my corset to the cleaners and while I was there noticed that some of the boning was exposed - the stitching had come away, and it was poking out.

It came back yesterday all clean, and then I took a needle and thread to it and quite neatly, I think, sewed it up... and it appears to have worked :D Wore it the whole of today, and it felt v. good - I've missed it these past few days

The lady at the dry cleaners did say she thought it looked uncomfortable - tried to explain it wasn't but I don't think she was really listening - its weird, people have their pre-conceptions but aren't really receptive when someone tries to challenge them. Note to self: make sure I challenge my pre-conceptions regularly

xoxo

CazaDolly

Nothing

Master has chosen that today I won't exist.

Dolly is aware of people nearby

Dolly knows she sometimes is out

Dolly knows that her existence at her Master's discretion 

Dolly is content to be not, or to be.

Dolly exists only for her Master

Dolly smiles happily to herself, knowing that she pleases her Master

Dolly is happy with her life, and her non-life

SL is a wonderful place

xoxo

CazaDolly

Stressed Dolly

Feeling quite on edge tonight - not quite sure why. Maybe work stress, travel stress or something... general feeling of wanting to just crawl into a box and be ignored by the world. I do love SL :)

CazaDollyInABox

Halfway

I've managed to do some more writing - I don't tend to let anyone see half finished stories, so I'm afraid you won't get to see anything for a bit - but it occurred to me to write a lil bit about the process.

I started about half way through - non-linear fiction creation... There's good reason for this. Often the most interesting part is about half way through the story. The beginning is just introduction and character development. Generally things kick off half way through Of course, quite often there's something interesting at the beginning, but that is generally closely linked to another event which happens subsequently. So the middle gets written first, then that bit gets written.

More writing is coming, I promise - there are things in the pipeline, half written - guess which half?

xoxo

CazaDolly

Dull and boring

Life can be like this sometimes - today was just ordinary - didn't do a lot, just hung out and relaxed. Not exciting at all, and feeling quite tired today. Laundry, cleaning etc, which was overdue... a lil of that got done.

But not a lot else to report, I'm afraid. Maybe tomorrow will be better...

xoxo

CazaDolly

Sight seeing

My GF's folks are down visiting, and we all had a day in London today - came back exhausted, but it was fun. Went to the Cutty Sark, lunch at Wagamama's at Canary Wharf, then across the Thames on the new Airline cable car which was *amazing*! Wandered around the area, and a strange exhibition on Cities etc, which was quite fun.

Then on to Stratford for a lil bit of shopping, then home, flopping onto the sofa. A good day - everyone enjoyed themselves.